I'm Joining a Nudist Colony

That's right, you heard me...a nudist colony. I had this epiphany this afternoon as I was sorting, folding, hanging up and putting away my sixth load of laundry with another five loads waiting to be washed. Nudist colonies are not made up of people wanting to be free from restrictions of clothes. Nudist colonies are made up of moms, who after doing the millionth load of laundry said, "THAT'S IT! I quit! I'm not doing another load of laundry....EVER." And thus a nudist colony is born. See, I told you. It makes sense. So, there you have it. The next time you drive by a nudist colony (because you know they're everywhere) don't think to yourself that they are freaks or nutjobs. Think to yourself, "Oh but for the grace of God (and a few more loads of laundry), go I." :)

Binky Haikus

These haikus were inspired when I took these pictures. Kaiya had taken her binky out of her mouth and was talking to it. I thought it was funny and was wondering what she was saying to it. So I thought these up. Hope you like. I think they're funny. Haha :)






It's Pink and plastic
All Slimy and wet from drool
fell on floor EWW!

How I so love thee
Quieting so many tears
Pop in mouth silence

Oh how I loathe you
Boiled million times over
when we have thrush Ugh!

Where art though Binky
3 a.m. screaming baby
lost under crib Dang!

My Baby Lost Her First Tooth (and I learned to Ripstik)

So Rayelle lost her first tooth today. We lost it at Golden Corral eating, then Daddy found it in the seat. Yeah! All of a sudden it hit me that my baby just lost her first tooth. I'm happy and sad at the same time. How big she's gotten in such a short time. So that was quite an adventure. Then earlier today Andy got out his Ripstik and went outside to practice. We all went out with him because it was such a beautiful day. So of course I had to try. I loved it! It's kinda like snowboarding but on concrete. Love it! So now I'm getting one too! Haha. The things we do to stay young! I had a lot of fun. It's a great workout too. So those are the pics. I hope you like them. All in all we've had a great few days spending time together. Our church has a thing going on now, Read the Bible in 90 Days. I started doing it and have actually enjoyed it. It's 13 chapters everyday. I have been a Christian all my life and never read the whole Bible. We'll be done by Easter. So some of my blogs may be about what God has been speaking to me through the reading. Anyway, expect more pics of me on the Ripstik as I embark on an adventure to master it...or at least do it well and maybe a few tricks. The pics more than likely will be hilarious! Lots of love.

My First Depressing Post

I've come to realize that motherhood and maybe adulthood in general comes with a lot of guilt. Or maybe it's just me. I find that in little everyday things and in the big things, it all has guilt attached to it. For instance, when you're younger you don't think twice about eating half a pepperoni pizza by yourself followed by a pint of your favorite ice cream and soda of your choice. Now the thought of pizza makes me feel guilty. I also use to never feel guilty about spending lots of money on clothes, shoes, accessories, etc. If I wanted it I bought it. Now I feel guilty buying myself a much needed package on underwear. WHY?!?! I feel guilty about everything. If my kids have hot dogs and koolaid for lunch, I have a huge serving of guilt. If I can't make it to the gym, guilt. If I am angry at my kids and yell, guilt. If my house isn't in perfect working order, guilt. If I am not the perfect wife and mother, lots of guilt. It seems there are few times in my week that I am not riddled with guilt over one thing or another. That's actually what made me start this blog. I needed a place to write down my guilt so maybe I could make sense of it. Will my kids really grow into fat lazy adults if we eat McDonald's two (okay three) times this week? Will my daughter flunk high school because we haven't been as diligent with kindergarden this year as we should have? Will I lose all my friends because when they come over there are things on the floor and almost every flat surface? Will I lose my husband if I don't look like every super skinny supermodel on tv? No. So why do I feel so guilty when I don't so everything perfect. This is one of my biggest confessions. I hate myself when I am not perfect and feel guilty and unworthy when I am not super mom. How do I work through this? How do I see myself with the eyes that God sees me through? I am worthy even when my house and life are in chaos, when I yell at my kids, don't do laundry or dishes, eat too much junk and go months without exercising. So why don't I feel it?

Happy New Year!

So this new year started out pretty okay. Any was gone on New Year's Eve for a youth thing so I went to bed early. Yeah! I actually don't see the big deal baout staying up til midnight. It's not like anything really huge happens at midnight. Now if something really cool happened, maybe I'd stay up. Then, two days later, I turned 25 and Raye turned 6. Talk about feeling older! My baby is 6 and she's got the attitude to prove it. She starting to get a little sassy (in a good way) and have a girls personality instead of a kid's. I'm so sad but happy at the same time. It's wonderful to see her growing up. Terhan will be 4 at the end of this month. I really can't believe that. He acts more and more like Andy everyday. He's is such a boy. It is amazing the differences between girls and boys. I don't think you can really appreciate it until you have one of each and you see their totally different reactions to the same situation. In fact, my next blog is going to be about the differences between girls and boys. Very funny, I assure you! Anyway, as I've looked back on this last year, I can't help but praise God. He's blessed up beyond belief. As I look forward to this new year, I am filled with a sense of peace and joy. No matter what I know God will take care of us. He always has. Anyway, hope you like the pics. Love to all. :)

My Christmas Spirit is Gone

So now that Christmas is over I find myself wanting to take down all the reminders of Christmas. The tree, the lights, all the decorations, everything. In fact today I was upset about something totally unrelated to Christmas decorations but all I could think about was ripping everything down, packing it in a box and putting it in the garage, like that would help or something. I don't understand. When I was decorating, it made me so happy to look at everything. Now I just have a feeling of something else that needs to be done. But I know as soon as I take them down, I'll be sad that Christmas time is over and gone again. Of course, now I have my birthday to look forward to. And Rayelle's and Terhan's. Yeah. Maybe it's the high of all the holidays that has finally left. Anyway, thought I'd just blog it. My Christmas spirit is gone....until next year.

Christmas in Kansas

So this year we went to Kansas for Christmas. We stayed at Andy's dad's house. I really liked going. It was a lot of fun. The car ride was so stressful. It took us as extra 2 1/2 hours to get there because of Kaiya. But once we were there she was a great little trooper. She let everyone kiss her and cuddle her. She loved the attention! The kids really loved going to Papa Jim's house. However this is the last year I'm telling them when Christmas day is until it's here. Picture this scene: It's dark outside, very late, nice and warm snuggled under covers. You fall asleep for maybe an hour and are suddenly woken up by your door opening. Two little heads peek in, "mommy" they whisper, "is it time to open presents?" ummmm, no. "Go back to bed." So you sleep a little bit longer, maybe another hour. Then again, "mommy, now?" "Go to bed." Then again at 3 o'clock in the morning, "Mommy, is it time to open presents yet?" "NO!! It's still dark outside." terhan- "but there's a little light right there" "Terhan that is a street light. Now if you wake me up one more time...." "Good night Grinch...I mean Mommy" Just kidding. That last part was my embellishment but the rest is totally true. My kids woke up three times between 11 and 3 to ask if it was time to open presents. I just about lost it! AARRGH! LOL! I remember being more excited about presents than sleep! Those were the days. Now I'd gladly give up a hundred presents for eight hours of uninterrupted sleep! Anyway, we had Christmas at Papa Jim's then on Saturday we went to get together with Andy's dad's side of the family for a Christmas party. It was a lot of fun. The kids played really well together and there was a lot of goodies. We had a great time seeing everyone. Our only disappointment was that it didn't snow enough for us to go sledding like we did last year. The kids would have had a blast. Maybe nest year.Anyway, I hope you all had a great Christmas and a happy new year. Love you all.